Fear Of Losing Friends

After leaving secondary school with, what I thought was optimism for college, I've actually become quite nostalgic over: the past five years of high school, missing the school itself, but moreover the idea of loosing friends.

Don't get me wrong, I'm more than excited to make new friends; and of course I want the same opportunity for everyone else too.

Yet what I am finding a little hard to process is the idea that we will no longer all be together anymore in the same space. I should quickly mention that many of my friends- and almost all of my closest friends- are at the same school as I, yet we will be separated as a result of going to a variation of colleges.

The idea of not having a particular place to meet up with certain friends I already know inside and out, and whom know me equally as well, worries me a bit for the future. I am aware of how I'd become almost too comfortable in the position I was in; almost complacent within the school environment, due to five years of being there. School was an area I felt untouchable, safe and as though nothing awful could ever happen to me there.

I'm just scared I will completely isolate myself one day, and end up without friends, or anyone to turn to when I feel upset. I don't want to loose everyone I hold dear simply because I'm an introvert.

So if any of you are going through the same thing, or are worried about something similar, let me know. How do I ditch the fear of the unknown, and just live?

Exam Stress

Of all my years in secondary school, Year Eleven has by far been the overwhelming of them all: college interviews, prom preparations, coursework. However above all, exams have definitely been the most stressful.

I can't highlight a part of doing exams that is towering over the others (in the anxiety-level category), nor can I recall the exact moment I began feeling stressed for them. I partially believe I've always felt nerves for my leaving school: the terror and nerves of going to college, no longer being with the friends I've grown up with, moreover the idea that the previous five years will have been leading up to a few hours in an exam hall.

The fact is, some days I will have an off-day; wake up moody, or perhaps just have an anxious day. But the thing to remember is it's okay to have a day when you aren't feeling 100%. If it just so happens that a negative-feeling day coincides with an exam, well yes you've drawn the short straw, yet that doesn't mean to not give your all.

At the end of the day, certain exams will go well and others, not so. Yet what's done is done and you won't properly know how it actually went until you collect you results.

It's extremely unfortunate that in this day and age, a piece of paper is what so many aspire to. If, hypothetically, you don't achieve the grades you expected; is that a major issue? There are so many different ways of reaching the same target goal. Yes, if you want to be in the medical industry, or perhaps you aspire to be a lawyer or a scientist, exams will be necessary.

But if you believe in the idea that everything happens for a reason, potentially a different path could be your future. Certain things are meant to be, and others of course, are not.

So if you are going to take amything from this, remember to not put all your hope in getting that one grade, or mark. It is not the be all and end all; try to keep this in mind.

Boys in books/films

We have all felt that tragic stab in the heart at watching a twilight movie or reading a romantic novel. I remember absolutely swooning over seeing the sight of baby Leo in Romeo + Juliet. I've recently realised however, that most boys will not suffice this longing for a prince or a hero.

Despite having many couples around me, and me or course being a single pringle (not too sure how to mingle due to social awkwardness), I still cannot understand why I don't wake up to a breakfast in bed, or walk out my door to follow a trail of rose buds, or to a horizon of glistening tea lights. Why can boys not be like in the novellas I so long to be true? Why can't I be Bella and where is my Edward? Or Noah and Penny? Or Daisy and Gatsby? And could someone please locate where my Ron Weasley is at!??

Most other teenage girls just want a boy to buy them a pandora ring and who wears Adidas and smells like David Beckham. But I want something more. I want a relationship like in tv shows. Where he's willing to die for me in a fight to protect my honour and well-being. Someone who would literally smash a restaurant window to have the opportunity of defending me (yes Mark Darcy, I'm looking at you). I want love letters and heart throbbing, foot in mouth, head feels like it might explode with the amount of love stored up in it, feelings. I want to be courted and romanticized. What ever happened to chivalry? In the words of Bonnie Tyler, 'where have all the good men gone?'

I have a YouTube channel!

Hi everyone! How's your day gone? Recently, as in a couple of months ago, I began a YouTube channel. It was extremely scary putting up my first video, however it was equally as scary writing my first blog post!
It's terrifying putting yourself out there: one nasty comment can make you feel awful inside. But it's not about the nasty comments, it's about doing something for me.
I love having this blog and my YouTube as a place for me to go and just be me. Even if no one reead my blog, and even if no one watched my videos, I'd still feel overjoyed that I can have my own little place on the internet to discuss the things that I want to.
It's lovely finally having an outlet for everything that I want to talk about! :)
It's as though, because I know that if you guys are uninterested in my content, then you don't have to read it; this means I don't feel as though I'm just talking at you, but that you're actually paying an interest!
I can't wait for my blog and YouTube channel to grow. I'm going to be, for both my blog as well as my channel, completely committed to writing/filming for you all, and I am 100% ready to be there every step of the way!

Catch Up

So sorry that I've been MIA for the past month, but I've been on holiday with my family and the end of school term stress etc. I had the most wonderful time in the South of France; visiting beaches and chilling by the pool. I also got to wear all of my new clothes from summer clothing shopping (one of the best things about going on holiday). Plus, the weather was in the mid-30's for most of the day, reaching 38 degrees one day!

I'm really sorry that I haven't been around for so long, but I'm going to try to upload more blog posts soon; but I'm not really sure what you all want me to write about? I like writing about beauty bits and doing product reviews, but I wasn't sure if that was what you all wanted?

Let me know and have a fab day,
Em x

Copper/Bronze Smokey Eye

Hi guys, I apologize again for not uploading any blog posts for a while, but I've been kind of busy at the moment. I'm going to attempt to get back in to blogging because I do really enjoy it, and I need to get in to a more regular routine.

So at the moment, my eye look has changed a bit, from editing my makeup daily, to actually having a form of set routine.

I begin with the Rimmel Kate Moss eyeshadow crayon in 'Rose Gold'. You may be thinking that I have completely contradicted myself saying it is a smokey eye look and this suggests it is a pinky toned colour. However, as you can see, this eye shadow colour is a pure copper. It is gorgeously pigmented, has good staying power and also is really easy to use.

I have had my eye on Nars 'Isolde' eyeshadow duo for the past 3-4 years. But seeing how it costs over twenty pounds, and I can't quite justify purchasing it, I have been recently searching for a copper eyeshadow to satisfy my copper craving. I use the goldy colour (the third shade) and the copper (the second shade). The other colours are also lovely, and -quick tip- the fourth colour is a really good match to the Maybeline Colour Tattoo in 'On and On Bronze', which is one my absolute faves!!

In an attempt to switch up my usual liquid liner look, I've been dipping my toe in the eye liner pencil pool. The Rimmel Exaggerate eye liner in 'Starlight Black'. The sponge on the end makes this twist up pencil easy and quick to smudge on the go.

And finally... a quick coat of my Maybeline The Falsies to add a pretty and fluttery effect to the lashes.

Highstreet Makeup Removers

Hi everyone! So sorry that I haven't posted in a while, but I've been doing my year 10 mocks at school, so I was none stop revising for about a month. 

So today I thought I would write about something I don't think gets talked about enough. Basically, when I watch youtubers talk about skincare, I always feel as though they miss out actual makeup removal. Like when I look at blogs, I always feel as though they mention cleansing, exfoliating, moisturizers etc, but I continually feel as though makeup removal is never talked about-particularly at a good price. I mean we can't all afford to be buying the Liz Earle, origins or the Emma Hardie cleansing balms.

NSPA hot cloth polish is (in essence) the Liz Earle hot cloth cleanser. It comes with a muslin cloth and is applied in a thick, cream consistency all over the face (no need to avoid the eyes-it gets rid of eye makeup too!), and finally wash the product and your makeup off with a damp muslin cloth. You can purchase this at ASDA for a morning or evening thorough cleanse!

The Botanics eye makeup remover is a great way to remove your mascara, eyeliner, eyeshadow etc. You simply apply to a cotton pad and sweep over the lids to take off your eye makeup. I tend to use this product if I have a large amount of eye makeup or if I want to remove my makeup before I work a face wash in to the rest of my face.

Again from Botanics, the gentle cleansing cream is squeezed on to a cotton pad and massaged in to the skin in circular motions before washing it off with warm water. Although I haven't tried it, you probably could use this as an eye makeup remover as well as the word 'gentle' is advertised-as well as the brand being Botanics and well-known for its more calming skincare.

Simple is also a brand which is great for sensitive skin. The moisturizing face wash is very good for not only keeping your skin nourished, but also can be used for makeup removal. I wouldn't recommend it as an eye makeup remover, however.... in a time of need I have previously used it to remover eye makeup and it did do the job! It has a gel-type consistency which can be literally dolloped on to your hands and worked all over the face, eventually turning in to a thinner consistency and breaking down your makeup.

Micellar water is fab for both eye makeup and base makeup as acts as gently as actual water! I've been trying out the L'oreal one at the moment, which is alright.... (not too happy hehe). I'm not a fan of the slight scent to it, and it also tends to spill out when you attempt applying it to a cotton pad. However, I would recommend the Garnier Micellar water and the Nivea one is also very very good too!

Stereo typically face wipes are perfect in a quick fix for taking off makeup. I don't to use them daily, however in a hurry or if I really cannot be bothered to do a full cleanse, face wipes seem to be the easier option. I would 100% advise you to purchase the P.S. Love deep facial cleansing wipes (or just any of them in general!). They're 2 in a pack for one pound which is incredible and each type of these face wipes do exactly what they say on the label whilst giving good clear makeup removal.