After leaving secondary school with, what I thought was optimism for college, I've actually become quite nostalgic over: the past five years of high school, missing the school itself, but moreover the idea of loosing friends.
Don't get me wrong, I'm more than excited to make new friends; and of course I want the same opportunity for everyone else too.
Yet what I am finding a little hard to process is the idea that we will no longer all be together anymore in the same space. I should quickly mention that many of my friends- and almost all of my closest friends- are at the same school as I, yet we will be separated as a result of going to a variation of colleges.
The idea of not having a particular place to meet up with certain friends I already know inside and out, and whom know me equally as well, worries me a bit for the future. I am aware of how I'd become almost too comfortable in the position I was in; almost complacent within the school environment, due to five years of being there. School was an area I felt untouchable, safe and as though nothing awful could ever happen to me there.
I'm just scared I will completely isolate myself one day, and end up without friends, or anyone to turn to when I feel upset. I don't want to loose everyone I hold dear simply because I'm an introvert.
So if any of you are going through the same thing, or are worried about something similar, let me know. How do I ditch the fear of the unknown, and just live?
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ReplyDeleteI too missed high school, and am an introvert. Even though I like being a recluse, I do sometimes regret that I spent so much of my life being reclusive.
ReplyDeleteI enjoyed watching your video 'WHERE HAVE I BEEN !?!' | Miss Milly May - YouTube very much.
In your video you asked what kinds of videos we like.
I like Haul+Try-On videos, outfit of the day videos, and multiple OOTD lookbook videos. :)
I am sure you have been very busy, and suspect that is why you haven't Tweeted or posted lately, or done another video since last year.
There are only a couple of women I interact with regularly in real life.
I do however enjoy having online fashionista friends via my blog where I embed my YouTube videos and via the replies to Tweets on my Twitter.
I don't know how to ditch the fear of the unknown.
I hope we both manage to muster more courage in the future.
Hugs xx <3